2 weeks down...

So I'm two weeks in. I've lost 5 pounds on week one and gained just under 1.5 lbs on week two. So overall it's still a loss. I really need to keep track of things better. I've discovered that is one of my downfalls. I have a TERRIBLE memory. I always used to track my food when doing a diet, but decided that this time around I wouldn't right away because then it would feel too much like a diet, and I wouldn't want to do it. I need to at least track my weigh ins better. As my math is just not adding up... now that I think of it I am down a total of 4.3 lbs... so I haven't even done a great job remembering the exact numbers... hahahah

I must say I notice a huge change in my attitude this time around. When I weighed myself on Tuesday and it was up. I didn't feel like running to the fridge. Don't get me wrong, I still have those moments all the time... but I talk myself through them, and drink water to avoid eating, etc. etc. That used to be one of my biggest downfalls was when I gained... I would binge for two days. I know .... counter intuitive right? But when you rely on food for comfort, and are a major emotional eater... that's what you turn to when you are upset that you've failed.

So my vow this week is to create some sort of log on the computer that I can fill out my weight ups and downs and maybe even calculate when my "goal" arrival date is. Then I have an end point in site as well... I am definitely going to take smaller steps and make smaller goals along the way. But it's nice to have the ultimate goal in mind as well.

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So I'm really good at keeping on top of this blog thing aren't I? hahaha over a year without a post.

And when I'm back to post again... guess what... just started the diet again! LMAO

Actually it's been a week, and so far so good. I've lost 5 pounds by loosely sticking to Weight Watchers. I have a new strategy this time... I think it might have finally sunk in that what I've been doing hasn't and will never work. My new strategy is to think about why I want to eat things. I know.. sounds simple enough... but my problem has and always will be stress/emotional eating. Or another favorite of mine... boredom eating.

Since opening the daycare I don't have a problem with boredom eating anymore.... I'm too busy all the time to be bored. But every time I get stressed or emotional and go to the refrigerator, I stop and say to myself "why do I want to eat", and when I don't have a legit reason... like "I'm hungry", then I think about how guilty I will feel about ruining my weight loss for a very short good feeling (that basically lasts for as long as I"m stuffing my face... :S

So far this week it was worked well for me. I've even had a glass of water instead of food a couple of times. I have had my slip-ups... but that's another new thing this time around for me... I'm not beating myself up over them. I just say to myself "Oh well... tomorrow is a new day".

Here's hoping that I can stick to this blog so that I have a record of my "Weightloss Journey"... no it's NOT a lifestyle change... it's a lifestyle challenge!!!